I still continued to get some headaches from my eyes to the top of my head. One time, it hurt so bad that I called my GP and asked to see if the RMSF was back or maybe it never go away. She assured me that it was gone and I was just having tension headaches. I had my doubts though. These headaches were not like any I had experienced before the RMSF. I also had an ongoing neck ache/stiffness. I thought that I just slept on it wrong with all my pillows or it was our mattress. It had been bothering me for a very long time. I never thought that the two could be related. I just brushed my neck issues aside and dealt with it daily. Assuming stress was surely the cause, as I was closing my business of 7 years and dealing with landlord issues.
When they tested me for RMSF, they noticed I was also anemic. They checked it each time they tested my titers for RMSF, but it was always the same. I went to see to my GYN in November and she found a had a large fibroid tumor and I needed a hysterectomy. So, after Christmas, I closed my business in Jan. and in Feb. I had my surgery. It went well and I didn't notice anything unusual, until in April, when I started my p/t job at the library.
As I began to settle into my new job and I tried to get my energy up, I noticed a few things that had me worried. I had become some what ADHD, I could write stories, like I loved to do and I was having problems remembering things that I should know. Like for example, I "love" to sing in the car, always have, always will. I would hear a song I have known all my life and start to sing it and I would forget the lyrics. I knew, I should know them and then I would get upset, because my brain was trying to remember, but I couldn't! I became dyslexic. I switched letters when typing and I transposed words that began the same. (Ex. restroom/rest area, or book/bag.) Yes, I know you all will say, "I do that too," but this was different. I felt my brain not responding correctly to things.
At work, I would see a screen on my computer and I totally didn't recognize it. I would ask my manager, what it was and she would explain it to me. Then about 10 minutes later I recognized it and couldn't understand why I didn't before. Sometimes, I got into the car and I couldn't remember where the turn signal was or how it worked. Jeff said, it happens to all of us, but I knew, it was not right for me to do this. Or driving in town and suddenly not sure how to get to some place I know. Then the really scary thing was when one of my friends from the my store "2P's", was at Dollar Tree. I saw her and as I started to say, "Hello Tracy," I couldn't remember her name. My brain actually hurt, from me trying so hard to remember. After about 10 minutes, I remembered. It scared me, so I went to see my GP, again. She assured me it was the Pristiq, that I was taking for my anxiety and it was normal. It happens to her, she said, it's okay.
This time, I didn't believe her.
To be continued...
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